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Thursday, January 27, 2011

Restless by Cecilia Borromeo

It is that perennial immateriality dwelling between living and dying
crouched in the corners and grappling by the hinges
only to remain unseen;
We weave our web of what we believe we understand
of the relationship of our acts and events
only to remain misunderstood;
From that odd wisp of steam of heated discussions
to the urgent hiss of a new page calling;
I teeter on that thin ice --
That single space of uncertainty --
And I ask
“What am I doing here?”.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

We are Family!

I think I really found a way to keep my brother and Willy from watching TV while I’m doing the housework, and that is playing music that they like! I didn’t realize that would be the result of it until this weekend. We woke up at 9am on Saturday and I played the songs on the new CD I bought. I was playing it from the laptop on my room and my brother came out from his room and turned the TV on. And I told him, ‘Can’t you see, I’m listening to music, turn that off!’. And he did, not out of fear but of goodwill seeing that I’m preparing breakfast for him. Hehe..
 
Suddenly, as I was cooking, I felt they both were uneasy just sitting on the sofa and listening to the beautiful love songs. Then they both set off to do something, Arjay went back to his room to fix his things, and Willy prepared his baggage for Singapore, also doing some house work themselves, while humming or singing with the music. I was a bit surprised about my discovery and smiled secretly. I don’t need to push their asses to throw out the garbage or put things in order. And now Saturday morning will always be ‘Music Morning’! Leisure time comes later after all the housework.
 
One of the songs in the CD is “My Love Will See You Through” by Marco Sison. I remember my father singing that to me when I was still in college. Below are the lyrics.
 
My Love Will See You Through lyrics
by Marco Sison
 
When friends turn their backs on you, And you're so helpless, You dont know what to do, I'll be on your side to comfort you, My love will see you through, When the tears are in your eyes, And you feel like you wanna cry, Just reach out and i'll be around to understand, When you stumble and fall, And you need a shoulder to lean on, All you have to do is call, And i'll be there with a helping hand, When the road seem so long and endless, And all you see is nothing but darkness, Dont give up just walk on, Have faith in your heart, For my love will see you through
 
My love will see you through, When you reach for your star, When you cross the deepest sea, When you climb the highest hill, my love will always be with you, In everything you do, In every step you'll make, In every road you take, Don't be afraid to follow your dreams, For my love will see you through
 
Next week, 3 Feb 2011, he’s turning 48, and he said they will visit us. Hope they’ll go as planned as my leave applications have already been approved!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Remembrances

He walked past beside me. His hair is long and grey and straight, almost below the level of his lungs. I think his name is Jesse, I can't remember, he was one of the guys playing their guitars during cultural events in the university, singing freedom songs, they never tire of these, they've always loved it anyways, and when I saw him again yesterday while walking, I felt he still have the same passion, and I envy him.

When I realized it was really him that I know a long time ago, not as a friend, but maybe, a brother in principle, I tried to speed up my pace to catch up with him, but he's too fast. And after months of not going to the same place to walk or jog, I felt I'm running out of breath. He started to get smaller and smaller from my vision, and its getting dark. I noticed his head is tilted to his right, as if there is some weight on the right side of his body making him do so. After a while, I saw him take out from his pocket a piece of paper? What is it? It might be a poem, a list of names, an agenda for a meeting. He might go to Vinzons Hall or maybe somewhere else. I cant catch up with him anymore. Its getting dark.

After a few minutes of walking, I saw him again, hugged a woman, a friend maybe, accompanied by a man, and they all walked/ jogged together. And I felt relieved. I didnt know why. Its getting dark at that hour. After circling the academic oval for three times, its time to go home. Next weekend, I hope to go back again. I might not see him again but there is always that same nostalgia that will never go away.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Aurora Vacation 12.24.10 - 01.01.11


Had a great holiday in my hometown, was able to visit Ampere Beach with April as well as Dinadiawan both in Dipaculao Municipalities- very secluded beach facing the Pacific Ocean. Hehe, it's nice to be there to relax, but not the ideal beach where you can swim - it's not the regular sandy beach, it's a rocky beach. ;-)

Sana next year ganto ulit, will be able to spend Xmas and New Year with family and close friends.

Im still on vacation mode.. Anyways, its just the first week of the year. Next week hopefully is going to be a full take off for work stuffs. Oh yes, I have a deadline! I wont have any excuses anymore.. Bad..

Monday, January 3, 2011

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

DMS Xmas Pajama Party & Dinner w/ GRC Staffs


Dec. 22 2010, 4-9 p.m. PRC Social Hall 4th Floor

Just before the year ends, we were able to celebrate the Holiday Season through this Pajama Party. It's so fun, we had lots of games and raffle prizes for almost all the staffs and I can say that we actually did a swell job. Thanks to Sir Yulz for conceptualizing this event, and for all the volunteers and staffs who helped us set up the venue, and of course our 'sponsors'. Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!

Today, the 23rd is the last working day for this year, and for the first time, I DONATED 350ML BLOOD!

Friday, December 17, 2010

Premonition

Just this afteroon, Sir Emilio talked to me asking if I'd be available next year for some work stuff, and I said I cannot answer for myself, but of course I am willing to be of help. And just last night,I had a dream, I knew it when I woke up this morning with a slight headache, he was talking to me in my dream, offering me some kind of job. Its so weird, is this the result of me being hooked up with X-Files lately?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Xmas Xhilaration

Christmas is coming and I can’t help but look forward to give my gifts to my little goddaughter & nephew, 2 young cousins, my mom and dad, of course, my beloved lola, aunts and uncles. We are not much in the family actually, on my father side, I only have 4 first cousins, born from the families of my father’s 2 siblings. There is no population growth in our family since each family only had 2 kids, like the kids are just replacing the existence of their parents. This thought made me remember the fate of the Buendia Family of G.G. Marquez’ “One Hundred Years of Solitude” – that in the end, all the offspring of the Buendia Family were wiped out from the face of Macondo. J And I plan not to have more than 2 kids, so I guess we’re not contributing to the population problem in the Philippines (if there is).

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Science Notes This Week

Season of Birth May Have Long-Term Effects on Personality, Study Suggests
The season in which babies are born can have a dramatic and persistent effect on how their biological clocks function. The new study raises an intriguing but highly speculative possibility: seasonal variations in the day/night cycle that individuals experience as their brains are developing may affect their personality. "We know that the biological clock regulates mood in humans. If an imprinting mechanism similar to the one that we found in mice operates in humans, then it could not only have an effect on a number of behavioral disorders but also have a more general effect on personality," said McMahon.
"It's important to emphasize that, even though this sounds a bit like astrology, it is not: it's seasonal biology!" McMahon added.
+++ Word for the day: Seasonal Biology, I knew its true!
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Lower Occurrence of Atopic Dermatitis in Children Whose Mothers Were Exposed to Farm Animals and Cats During Pregnancy
The researchers were able to demonstrate that women who spend their pregnancy in the proximity of farm animals and cats have children with a reduced risk of developing atopic dermatitis in their first two years of life. The research team also identified two genes in these children that are of vital importance for innate immunity and was able to link the expression of these genes to a lower likelihood of a doctor diagnosis of an allergic condition. The findings of the study are not only significant in the face of the frequency of the disease and the suffering it causes: They also support the theory that gene-environment interaction with the developing immune system influences the development of atopic dermatitis in young children.
+++ Now I know why I don’t have allergies.
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Electronic Cigarettes Are Unsafe and Pose Health Risks, Study Finds
"Contrary to the claims of the manufacturers and marketers of e-cigarettes being 'safe,' in fact, virtually nothing is known about the toxicity of the vapors generated by these e-cigarettes. Until we know any thing about the potential health risks of the toxins generated upon heating the nicotine-containing content of the e-cigarette cartridges, the 'safety' claims of the manufactureres are dubious at best.
+++ Or is this study a result of the competition between tobacco cigarettes and the e-cigarettes as they are gaining popularity?
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People With a University Degree Fear Death Less Than Those at a Lower Literacy Level, Spanish Study Finds
People with a university degree fear death less than those at a lower literacy level. In addition, fear of death is most common among women than men, which affects their children's perception of death. In fact, 76% of children that report fear of death is due to their mothers avoiding the topic. Additionally, more of these children fear early death and adopt unsuitable approaches when it comes to deal with death.
+++ Yeah, maybe because of apocalyptic images associated with death.
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Pregnant Mother's Diet Impacts Infant's Sense of Smell, Alters Brain Development
A major new study shows that a pregnant mother's diet not only sensitizes the fetus to those smells and flavors, but physically changes the brain directly impacting what the infant eats and drinks in the future.
Researchers studying mice found that the pups' sense of smell is changed by what their mothers eat, teaching them to like the flavors in her diet. At the same time, they found significant changes in the structure of the brain's olfactory glomeruli, which processes smells, because odors in the amniotic fluid affect how this system develops. "Exposure to odor or flavor in the womb elicits the preference but also shapes the brain development," said Todrank,
+++ Good, so at least there is a way to direct your child, if you want him/her to eat just fried chicken or be more inclined to eat fruits or vegetables.
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A Team With a Shared Lousy Temper Is Better at Mental Tasks
Managers who want their team to perform better should let employees express negative emotions. Teams who share bad feelings solve complicated problems better, share more information with each other and have a greater solidarity, concludes Dutch researcher Annefloor Klep.
Complaining aloud or in silence?
Klep let her test subjects see cheerful films or specifically sad ones, and looked afterwards at how her fictitious employees worked together and how successful they were in performing creative or specifically analytical tasks. Groups who were shown sad films and talked about it before they started their task, performed difficult decision-making tasks the best, also better than groups who had seen a sad movie but hadn't been allowed to discuss it. A team can therefore benefit considerably from expressing negative feelings and sharing these.
+++ Therefore, whining is good. J
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Dogs Have Bigger Brains Than Cats Because They Are More Sociable, Research Finds
Over millions of years dogs have developed bigger brains than cats because highly social species of mammals need more brain power than solitary animals, according to a study by Oxford University.
+++ Sociable = Intelligence? Nope. So I still prefer cats. Hehe.
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All topics above are excerpts from ScienceDaily.Com. Check out their website on www.sciencedaily.com.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Pasig River Ferry Service

I think a lot of people dont know that this service exists, way back then, before joining RC, I never wanted to go through the hassles of riding the mrt and then lrt to go to work, but when I discovered that a ferry station is located very near my place, I finally decided that I can work this way. And it's really the most comfortable ride in the city..





It is romantic for first timers, and some tourists board it to have a rear view of Malacanang Palace, which for me actually looks glamorous from the river. Hope a lot of people would come to use it as their main means of transportation in the city, for more possibilities of improvement of their facilities.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Daghang Salamat Pagadian!


Nov. 22 – 28, 2010: They say Pagadian is the Little Hong Kong of the South, for me, it’s a place which smells of watermelon, grass and the sea. I was greeted with rain when I arrived on the 22nd – Monday and my memories of Pagadian revolved around circling the city on board Sir Danny and Nat’s motorcycle, of course with Fred and Hicut’s motorcycles as well, with the beautiful volunteers of Pagadian City chapter, it really made me wonder, there seems to be a lot of beautiful girls in this city. :-)

And there’s also the weird tricycle, where its sidecar is tilted for about 30-45 degrees, it’s a bit hard to board it, but they say, that’s how they cope with the slopes of the city – it reminds me of Benguet actually. I had the chance to roam around the city on Friday, after a few days of helping Danny during the training, and with Nat’s help, we circled 3 municipalities of Zamboanga Sur, and then on Sunday, had a feastful breakfast at Kumalarang – another municipality.

Thanks to everyone – the participants who were able to bear with me despite the language differences, the staffs of PRC Pagadian, the beautiful and handsome volunteers of PRC, and the rest of the madlang tao who have given their kindness in any form. Daghang Salamat, hope to see you again!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Midnight Musings

What to do on a sleepless midnight? Write down your thoughts...

2010 is going to end very soon, as each day passes very quickly. I have been preparing for the trip to Pagadian City this coming Monday and I am so preoccupied and excited about this new place to visit. I’m going to Mindanao, a beautiful place masked by a dark facade of religious controversy and civil strife, where the family of my Father came from – Sultan Kudarat – his stories revolves around images of poverty, conflict with Muslim people, land grabbing, and militarism. That is why in the later part of his youth, they transferred here to Luzon, despite meagre income opportunities, and they survived, that is why I’m here.

The training in Pagadian City is Community Based Disaster Management Training. I guess it should have been easier have I not watched 11th Hour nor The Inconvenient Truth. Watching these films gave me the burden of always linking DM with Climate Change – which should always be the case, actually. I remember JP during the last time we met (on his birthday), he mentioned that their organization is dealing with Climate Change politics, not really Disaster Management, and I was then asking ‘Why not?’ – his organization saw the links, have weighed, and lead them to deal with CC politics – which I think in ‘our’ organization, what can we actually do, or what have we been doing so far? In the local arena, how are our chapters capacitated to deal with Climate Change issue, or shall we deal with this issue knowing that no matter how we change our lifestyle into loving Mother Earth, we still cannot do so much unless the US signs and ratifies the agreements?

With all these questions, looking back at the last 10 months of experience with the organization, I’m thrilled that at last, at least, I will have the chance to share the lessons I have learned and practised – in Pangasinan, Benguet and most especially, in Zambales.

Danny Cabalyero will be my best friend in Pagadian. It’s going to be one week of stay, and I guess I’m ready for it.

Christmas is near, and still, we haven’t put up some decorations. Things are going smoothly in the house, and I’m looking forward to go home by Christmas in Aurora, hope there’s no disaster at that time, so we’ll all have a disaster-free Xmas. I really wanted to go home, and just relax, my Mom said the cat – Sascha is big already – that’s one of the things to motivate me to go home.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

The 11th Hour

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Documentary


See below selected and compiled reviews about this film, a must-see!
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Salon.com

A haunting, elegiac history of how human beings have brought the planet to the edge of a precipice, and call upon an impressive array of thinkers to discuss how, and whether, we can avoid the abyss that waits below.
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New York Times
Manohla Dargis

An unnerving, surprisingly affecting documentary about our environmental calamity [that] is such essential viewing.
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Richard Roeper
Ebert and Roeper

A sobering look at the astounding changes in our planet over the last generation -- and the bleak future that awaits us if we don’t get our act together.
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San Francisco Chronicle
Joe Garofoli

Best put by Bay Area entrepreneur and environmentalist Paul Hawken: "The best thing about the dilemma we're in is that we get to reimagine every single thing we do. And so there are two ways of looking at that: Oh, my gosh, what a big burden. The other way to look at it, which is the way I prefer, is: "What a great time to be born! What a great time to be alive! Because this generation gets to essentially completely change the world."
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Detroit Full Press
Terry Lawson

It benefits the most by providing good advice and an abundance of well-considered ideas from forward thinkers of all stripes and persuasions who refuse to give up hope.
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TreeHugger

The 11th Hour examines the human relationship with earth from its earliest glimmers of innovation, to the challenges humanity faces in the present, to the possibilities of the future.”
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Variety

“True to its doom-laden title, global-warming doc "The 11th Hour" presents the viewer with reams of depressing data, loads of hand-wringing about the woeful state of humanity and, finally, some altogether fascinating ideas about how to go about solving the climate crisis.”
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Chicago Reader

The filmmakers take pains not to foster fatalistic gloom, concentrating on some of the progressive solutions still available to us.
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Toronto Star

If Al Gore's An Inconvenient Truth was a warning, The 11th Hour is the red alert.
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Killer Movie Reviews

Nothing less than a complete rethinking of the relationship between humankind and the planet on which it lives. Complex, challenging, mind-expanding, and sometimes mind-blowing
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About.com

Among recent documentaries questioning the status quo, The 11th Hour takes the most far-reaching point of view and connects issues into larger patterns, culminating in a truly global call for change.
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Metromix.com

Manages to be serious without being extreme in its message that global warming is no longer something to be debated but addressed and fought NOW.
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Montreal Gazette

“Leonardo DiCaprio's environmental film presents a concept of frugality that doesn't preach living cheaply.”
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Thursday, November 11, 2010

The First Time I Loved Forever


I was checking the list of songs that I’ve been listening to back in 2006 and one was this song by Melanie Safka. I remember it was also one of the theme songs for Beauty and the Beast – my favourite fairy tale. The song was derived from a poem by EE Cummings “Somewhere I have Never Traveled, Gladly Beyond”. I like it so much, it keeps on ringing on my head.

The First Time I Loved Forever
Poem:
 

“Somewhere I have never traveled
Gladly beyond any experience
Your eyes have their silence
And your most frail gesture of things
Which enclose me
But which I cannot touch
Because they are too near.”

The first time I loved forever
Was when you whispered my name
And I knew at once you loved me
For the me of who I am

The first time I loved forever
I cast all else aside
And I bid my heart to follow
Be there no more need to hide

And if wishes and dreams
Are merely for children
And if love's a tale for fools
I'll live the dream with you

Poem:
“oh, if your words be to close me
I, my life will shut, very beautifully
Suddenly, as when the heart of this flower
Imagines the snow carefully, everywhere
descending”.

For all my life and forever
There's a truth I will always know
When my world divides and shatters
Your love is where I'll go

Poem:
“I do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens. Only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses.
Nobody, not even the rain has such small hands.”

Monday, November 1, 2010

Undas @ Aliaga, N. E.


It was more than a year that I wasn't able to visit the hometown of my mother, and since then, a lot of things have changed. Thanks to the long weekend, and to the fact that my grandmother started undergoing dialysis - my 'always cancelled' plan to go there was now fulfilled, and I hope to visit her as often as I could. My cousins (just a few years older than me) have babies already, one of them "Shane' looks just like me when I was an infant.

I miss my grandfather, and being in their house once again brought back lots of his memory. He fought very hard way back then against diabetes and all its complications. And he left us unwillingly. He was strong, and gentle, and he had a good and happy life.