While I’m packing my things as I will leave Mandaluyong for maybe three weeks to go back home for a while, I came across a piece of paper with an old poem I wrote years ago, way back in college. The date is 13/October/2005. Here it is:
MOCK ME NOW
Once,
When idealism
Have evaded my thought
I have struggled
To free myself
To soar high into
Utopian thinking
Brushing away the
Naked truth
Of absurd ugliness
Of the material.
Then,
Here they come: comrades
Prophesying truths
Unmasking demi-god’s reign
The larger prison
That have enveloped us
So long.
They come abducting
Enlightening,
Taking.
Until,
Juveniles weak in strength
Come and go
Swayed and stayed.
Still, history moves
Forward with them
Objectively
Subjectively.
I once
Told you this:
“I’m afraid that
I will once again
Recreate a world
Of my own,
Estranged
Divorced
From the
Red connection. +++
Ridiculous, isn’t it?
Imports from my old multiply site joyceanndumayag.multiply.com
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
A Social Ritual
Last Saturday, we were invited to watch a concert organized by Ate Joan Basirgo – a long time friend since college, composer and musician, mentor when it comes to music and is like a sister to me. We went there after a day of sleeping and just bumming inside the house, after hours of indecision on what we should do that night. I know we were ‘destined’ to be there that night and my eagerness to see Ate Joan of course after months that I have no news of her made it happen. I am so glad to see her, cant help but muse over the old days, Katipunan/ Proj 4 moments, with the Chinese nuns (Catholic), the singing and lunching together and the solitary garden at the back of that old house.
The host of the concert is Hillcrest Family Life Organization – a Baptist church headed by Rev. Reuel Tica, and for more than an hour, we were entertained by the ‘Gracenotes’ – teenage group/ choir of six members – including Hans – Ate Joan’s hubby :-D (to avoid confusion, Ate Joan is not a cradle snatcher, so Hans is older than the teenage songers.
I don’t have any inhibitions about Ate Joan inviting me over to hear some music, it’s also one of my passions, she is a witness to that, but the complexity comes when we talk about religion. Although, the Reverend is very much welcoming, very friendly and doesn’t sound like preaching dogmatically, I still cannot take off my head that I am surrounded by believers! And I hate to be rude by telling them that I do not believe, actually they are not even asking about it. I am also uncertain if the reverend whom we had a great conversation and who walked us around the house telling stories about the ministry already assumed that we, indeed are believers, well, Willy do believe, and he understand the unspoken war within me at that time. I fear that I have totally lost my faith. Am I chronically detached from that Supreme Being you call God?
Anyways, I sincerely appreciate what happened that night, those young singers with dreamy eyes, the community (almost ideal) that the reverend is starting to build, the friendship among the members of the community, and one thing that is worth mentioning here, the old man that the church adopted – everything about them seemed morally idyllic, if that’s the kind of community those ‘believers’ want to achieve, why not believe in God?
This Wednesday (Oct 14), we might watch the ‘Gracenotes’ again, and we’ll wish them luck on their tour to Hong Kong.
By the way, yesterday, I learned from Jane that Kuya Ronald David (a friend from college) is dead due to Meningitis – such a short life, he’s just two years older than me, once a very gentle creature, very kind, what else can I say? Sigh..
P.S. Exam Day. I went to Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife RC alone (‘-,’)
The host of the concert is Hillcrest Family Life Organization – a Baptist church headed by Rev. Reuel Tica, and for more than an hour, we were entertained by the ‘Gracenotes’ – teenage group/ choir of six members – including Hans – Ate Joan’s hubby :-D (to avoid confusion, Ate Joan is not a cradle snatcher, so Hans is older than the teenage songers.
I don’t have any inhibitions about Ate Joan inviting me over to hear some music, it’s also one of my passions, she is a witness to that, but the complexity comes when we talk about religion. Although, the Reverend is very much welcoming, very friendly and doesn’t sound like preaching dogmatically, I still cannot take off my head that I am surrounded by believers! And I hate to be rude by telling them that I do not believe, actually they are not even asking about it. I am also uncertain if the reverend whom we had a great conversation and who walked us around the house telling stories about the ministry already assumed that we, indeed are believers, well, Willy do believe, and he understand the unspoken war within me at that time. I fear that I have totally lost my faith. Am I chronically detached from that Supreme Being you call God?
Anyways, I sincerely appreciate what happened that night, those young singers with dreamy eyes, the community (almost ideal) that the reverend is starting to build, the friendship among the members of the community, and one thing that is worth mentioning here, the old man that the church adopted – everything about them seemed morally idyllic, if that’s the kind of community those ‘believers’ want to achieve, why not believe in God?
This Wednesday (Oct 14), we might watch the ‘Gracenotes’ again, and we’ll wish them luck on their tour to Hong Kong.
By the way, yesterday, I learned from Jane that Kuya Ronald David (a friend from college) is dead due to Meningitis – such a short life, he’s just two years older than me, once a very gentle creature, very kind, what else can I say? Sigh..
P.S. Exam Day. I went to Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife RC alone (‘-,’)
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Three Years in Call Center Industry
Its been less than three years that I have worked in the call center industry, it started November 2006 with Incoho Philippines Inc, and ended on October 2009 at 24/7 Customer Phils. Three years of precious experiences with friends, colleagues, acquaintances and bosses, bits and pieces that I have learned from all of them, from every situation I dealt with, and now I’m writing this at least to summarize what have happened.
It took me three years to realize what it is that I really want in my life, and working in this Industry have helped me land on that insight. Well, honestly, I cannot say this applies to everybody, but when you are earning money and you don’t have any vision of your future, its either you waste money on some luxuries and vices and just live for the present. This kind of attitude went on for nearly two years, together with friends who basically have the same mindset as me way back then, I love them all, to mention Robe and Jamela and Irisk of course, and Brenda. And I know that all of us will take different journeys, diverse struggles and escapades, and we will all survive. And we will always be friends. Until now, I feel a bit homesick remembering what we’ve shared during Incoho Days.
I decided to leave Incoho because I want a dayshift job, with almost the same pay. And I landed on an Australian Acct – Optus CS, an agent, I was part of the team I was with since training, including my Team Leader – Rez Santos. It was fun, but I admit, it’s a bit stressful, comparing this with the job that I handled in Incoho (well, thanks to the caring supervision of Sir Dino at Incoho). I had some challenges in 24/7, but sooner I was able to resolve it with the help of my TL, and I finally esteemed all my teammates. This company can give real party if an occasion is to be celebrated, Halloween, Xmas Party and Anniversary, name them, I enjoyed them all. After a year, I was promoted to be a SME (Subject Matter Expert).
And yesterday, October 06, 2009, it all ended. It felt like I’m stepping into another era of hopeful visions for my future and I just can’t help but wonder, what lies ahead might be bleak, but for sure it’ll lead me to a path of guided certainty.
It took me three years to realize what it is that I really want in my life, and working in this Industry have helped me land on that insight. Well, honestly, I cannot say this applies to everybody, but when you are earning money and you don’t have any vision of your future, its either you waste money on some luxuries and vices and just live for the present. This kind of attitude went on for nearly two years, together with friends who basically have the same mindset as me way back then, I love them all, to mention Robe and Jamela and Irisk of course, and Brenda. And I know that all of us will take different journeys, diverse struggles and escapades, and we will all survive. And we will always be friends. Until now, I feel a bit homesick remembering what we’ve shared during Incoho Days.
I decided to leave Incoho because I want a dayshift job, with almost the same pay. And I landed on an Australian Acct – Optus CS, an agent, I was part of the team I was with since training, including my Team Leader – Rez Santos. It was fun, but I admit, it’s a bit stressful, comparing this with the job that I handled in Incoho (well, thanks to the caring supervision of Sir Dino at Incoho). I had some challenges in 24/7, but sooner I was able to resolve it with the help of my TL, and I finally esteemed all my teammates. This company can give real party if an occasion is to be celebrated, Halloween, Xmas Party and Anniversary, name them, I enjoyed them all. After a year, I was promoted to be a SME (Subject Matter Expert).
And yesterday, October 06, 2009, it all ended. It felt like I’m stepping into another era of hopeful visions for my future and I just can’t help but wonder, what lies ahead might be bleak, but for sure it’ll lead me to a path of guided certainty.
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